You have a kind of sick desperation in your laugh

I am Jack's inflamed sense of rejection

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[06 Nov 2003|09:48pm]

I am friends only.

I am the angel on your shoulder, embittered by years of neglect

I am your dirty thoughts, murderous and sweet, I'll indulge your every fantasy

I am humanity

I am original sin

I am everything we know it true, everything we'll never admit to ourselves

I am your every desire, every desire you hide away for fear of public exposure

I am your hopes and dreams failing and diseased and lying in gutters waiting to be let go

I am the father of all you see, materialism, progress, slap a pretty face on me and I'm the next big thing, your cure, your breath, your soul

I am the hype, the hysteria

I am the flood you seek to drown in but that cannot fill you cup

I am hisory, old and forgotten, mangled and misplaced

I am love

I am the simple and unrefined truth, defiant and proud and never in plain view

I am the image that flashes through the mind of all your priests, all your media messiahs, all your idols, they saw me while they fed the hungry, clothed the naked, they clothed them in sin and self-righteousness, pride and self-denial

I am your heart, screaming to be released

I am your gut feeling

I am the reason you wake in the morning

I am the reason you fall in the end

I am life

I am death

I am temptation

I am salvation

I am that which grips you and makes you doubt yourself

I am that which corrupts you

I am the reason you cant look yourself in the mirror

I am the reason you cant look your lover in the eye

I am every word you've spoken, but without the letters, every poem without the rhyme, every song without the music or the poetry

I am the blood in your vains, anything you ahve, I have you, anything you lose, through me you shall regain

I am obediant and conquering, parasite and mother, giver of life and consumer of souls

I am not on the television, nor the radio, I spend my days not in pornography, nor in brothels, I am in your heart, with every beat it screams of me, to look away from me is to turn down life itself

I am the air you breath, contaminated and destroyed in your lungs

I am the virus that kisses your heart and kills you softly while you sleep, old and abandoned

I am the act which gave you birth, I am the great puppetmaster

I am the sun in the sky

I am the heat in the Earth, everything that moves moves through me, without me you accomplish nothing

I am your best friend

I am the scars that never heal

I am heat and cold, ever present, relentless and unbrideled

I am the skin of a child, the clothes he will wear, the milk of his mother's breast

I am the providing force for all you will ever know

I am the lack of air to your brain

I am that slowly sinking feeling

I am who you are when you are never alone and always in solitude

I am peace, eternal and conquered fighting for my very existence

I am heros and idols, imperfect and flawed, striving to assimilate

when satisfied

I will make you everything, when denied

I will crush you to nothing

I exist in you and the one you speak to, the one you love, the one you have, the one you dream of and the one who cries for you

I am your memories, glossy and fake, plastering your room to cover bare walls

I am purpose, your need to go on, your need to be held

I am the reason you can't smile

I am the reason its not good enough

I am the reason its no go

I am the reason you cry, and the reason you are ashamed of those tears

I am devils and villians, everything you branded ignonymous, all living within you, all directing your feelings, all pushing you for more, harder, faster, bigger, more, progress, progress, more, cheaper, efficient, progress progress

I am the descending glance of your father

I am the dissapproved look of an instructor

I am your motivation

I am what you want, what you think you want, what they tell you you want, what you need, what you breathe, what you cry what you bleed what you scream what you sweat what you drink what you think what you feel what you need what you are what you die for, only tears fuel the fire

I am disillusionment deep set and overwhelming

I am resentment stinging and hateful and almost alive

I am the clenched fist, the first fight, the revolver and the whip

I will liberate you through my own means

I am bliss and forgotten

I am love and infidelity

I am the things you never see coming

I am the voice of your prophets

I am science and common sence, even if death you escape me not for

I live on through your children and so on until I bring this world to a crashing halt with all youve ever knownt bleeding amongst the fields of your accomplishments your house your family your smiles and gasps your weddings and your funerals your alarms and your sirens the best and the worst the general and the diplomat I encompas all and if need be I will bring you to me dragged by your hair.

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